Everything and Nothing

[Aerick Ravenheart]

Useless babble
incoherent blithering
you lay there withering
away
Rambling on about
everything and nothing
derogatory comments
on my behalf
you giggled quietly
but I heard you
laughing at me
that way
the way you always do
because you just knew
didn't you
you knew exactly what
was so amusing
you were better than me
Or so you thought
you were such a little
lier and pretender
a fake and a fraud
guaranteed to rip out
my heart
I'm just a silly stupid boy
you say
I never knew you would
find out about it
Well I did
goddamn it
And it sure as Hell
didn't help when you
told me you loved me
and I believed it
even though the glare
of misconception
and deception
filled your eyes
and couldn't disguise
your utter disgust for me
malcontent
pathetic
sad
I loved you
And now
after all the drama
All the tears and heartache
nights spent in sorrow
without a regard for
any tomorrow
I pity you
You are nothing
You make me sick
I never want
to see you
again