OK..................uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuummmm................. ok..

dearest junkie,

why do guys i'm interested in always blow me off? i won't go into detail, but there is a LONG history of being cast aside, blown off/ignored, or dumped off for some other chick thats "better" than me. theres always another girl of some sort, every single time. and the only guys i ever seem to attract are fucktards like dumb coke guy at the feb. sanctus. WTF?!!!

-do i smell or something? :does armpit check:
-do i have "crazy psycho bitch" tatooed on my forehead in invisible ink that only guys can see? :scratches head:
-do i look like i have an std? :i don't:
-do i look like i want to talk to fucktards that snort cocaine and talk about dumb shit like partying and wrestling? NO!!!

why junkie! why?

gwenhwyfar wrote:OK..................uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuummmm................. ok..

dearest junkie,

why do guys i'm interested in always blow me off? i won't go into detail, but there is a LONG history of being cast aside, blown off/ignored, or dumped off for some other chick thats "better" than me. theres always another girl of some sort, every single time. and the only guys i ever seem to attract are fucktards like dumb coke guy at the feb. sanctus. WTF?!!!

-do i smell or something? :does armpit check:
-do i have "crazy psycho bitch" tatooed on my forehead in invisible ink that only guys can see? :scratches head:
-do i look like i have an std? :i don't:
-do i look like i want to talk to fucktards that snort cocaine and talk about dumb shit like partying and wrestling? NO!!!
why junkie! why?

hahahah.. i know this is a serious question but i laughed my ass off reading your description.
smell, well everything smells like beer and cigs to me, i wouldnt know. but not that im aware of... ink thing? no. but i do think thats possible.... (reference my Ex's... haha) std? no. and believe me, ive met and know quite a few people you can look at and say HERPES. the cocaine thing....

rick james wrote:cocaine is a hell of a drug...

i never talked about partying constantly till i got off drugs. there for a few months i did, but i got over it. people that talk about it while they are doing it and shit... thats lack of brains.
men are simple creatures.
we want food, sex, beer, sleep, and for women to leave us big open space where they are not going to be.... and often.
but all men have the same damn character flaws.
they will have one of the following if not a mix:
many men fear committment, others (like me until recently) dont believe in it at all. some guys are too addicted to something to pay attn to anything else. this can be drugs, an ex, a job, wrestling, video games, computers,sports, whatever.some guys are too fucking emotional (read: emo kids). other guys arent emotional enough (read: guys like me). other guys are always looking "upgrade" and find a new woman. the funny thing about those guys is this: usually they go DOWN the ladder of the "catch-o-meter". if your not a victim of this or a flaw like it and you have a penis, so does the person your interested in.

men are silly but we are predictable if you know our design patterns
women make us this way
you are all crazy, so we are all assholes.
its cause effect.
we make women that way.
noone knows who started it, but its started.

on the converse, i suggest when you talk to men, be confident as ffuck, act like you dont need or want them BUT act interested, and be as independant and aggressive as possible.
real men will eat this shit up.
men have a genetic weakness to that shit
then you can screen them out and find the one thats right for you
confidence always wins. be confident and keep asking me for fashion tips... we will get you a man!
enjoy.

Junkie I fucked up my audition, what's the best way for me to recouperate?

Coor wrote:Junkie I fucked up my audition, what's the best way for me to recouperate?

anal and beer.

which is a better way for wiping someone out of your head? Alcohol, morphine, alcohol AND morphine or extremebloodloos resulting in hospitalization?

junkie, i love you more and more every single day!
you HAVE to come to knoxville to hang out more.

i know i don't smell bad, i'm too much of a hygiene freak( i wash almost everything twice while in the shower, thats why evel bitches about me taking 20-30min showers). lol, i carry deodorant, hand sanitizer, breath mints, and scented lotion in my purse at ALL times. so, i do not stink.

and for the record: i don't, nor have i ever had any kind of std or funky infection. high five on the clean poonany!

oooooooooooh, are you coming to april sanctus? you better. assuming the top i just ordered fits, you will definitely approve of what i plan on wearing. just think red, vinyl/pvc/patent leather(what the difference?), boots, and geisha girl. mwuuuuuuuahahahaha.
i just hope it doesn't look trashy, i try to keep it a little classy. note: if i ever look trashy, SOMEBODY please tell me so that i may correct the error of my ways!


new question for the all knowing junkie christ. why does my baby lily(my oober dumb puppy) always get sooo upset when i wash the dishes? not when i'm on the computer or cleaning the house, just when i'm doing the dishes. i play with her all the time and she has plenty of toys and chewys to play with, but she sits at my feet and whimpers when i wash dishes.

I didn't think of anal as an actual solution, and since I prolly lost my first chance to be in a film beer does sound good. However, I'm really not a good female to be around when I drink.

satanskitten wrote:which is a better way for wiping someone out of your head? Alcohol, morphine, alcohol AND morphine or extremebloodloos resulting in hospitalization?

i cant even joke about mophine, that shit had me by the balls for YEARS. i used to have to start dosing just to act normal, not even to get high.
alkie + morphine ==OD quicker than you can say the letters if your not careful..... speaking from repeated experience.bloodloss is a stupid "why does the WORLD HATE ME??!!" solution. :staple:
your approaching this the wrong way
the best way?
TO DO SOMETHING ELSE.
seriously
find new people, make new hobbies, try a new job, maybe you dont need something new, focus on the things your good and and enjoy. spend time with your friends and loved ones, or maybe tell em all to eat a dick.this shouldnt take a distaster but it takes one for most people to pick up the basic shit in life that enriches us all. noone will stay, nothing lasts forever, and its not so bad. really. find someone new, find someone old. hell maybe just talk to the person your trying to wipe from your head.theres tons of solutions....i could list em all day
the trick to remember is this:
negative engergy is powerful shit
im not talking about that new age hippie crap, i mean the actual emotiinal fuel in your system. thats where you can get an undenyable strength/will to do accomplish whatever you want to do in life. sitting around complaining is a cowards way out. too easy. my advice is to get even by succeeding in life more now that the opposite is gone. you should never wipe anything from your memory.you should make new memories
fuck loss fuck pain fuck agony.
if they are going to be the only real emotions ever feel, lets accept it and use it for fire to keep fucking off and doing what we want.
its the last real freedom we have.
give up, totally let go, and do what makes you happy.
noone makes the best accomplishments in their lfie because all was well. they do it because they had the "mad man work ethic" because they were filled with fucking hate over the whole thing.
fuck wiping it, just dont think about it and do something else. make a new memory.

gwenhwyfar wrote:junkie, i love you more and more every single day!
you HAVE to come to knoxville to hang out more.
i know i don't smell bad, i'm too much of a hygiene freak( i wash almost everything twice while in the shower, thats why evel bitches about me taking 20-30min showers). lol, i carry deodorant, hand sanitizer, breath mints, and scented lotion in my purse at ALL times. so, i do not stink.
and for the record: i don't, nor have i ever had any kind of std or funky infection. high five on the clean poonany!
oooooooooooh, are you coming to april sanctus? you better. assuming the top i just ordered fits, you will definitely approve of what i plan on wearing. just think red, vinyl/pvc/patent leather(what the difference?), boots, and geisha girl. mwuuuuuuuahahahaha.
i just hope it doesn't look trashy, i try to keep it a little classy. note: if i ever look trashy, SOMEBODY please tell me so that i may correct the error of my ways!
new question for the all knowing junkie christ. why does my baby lily(my oober dumb puppy) always get sooo upset when i wash the dishes? not when i'm on the computer or cleaning the house, just when i'm doing the dishes. i play with her all the time and she has plenty of toys and chewys to play with, but she sits at my feet and whimpers when i wash dishes.

thxthx. on coming to knox: thats getting set up slowly... im putting together a new music project in knox this summer and ill hopefully be there more but ill be taking some summer graduate electives and trying to spend more time with my time-neglected gerlfiend... plus work.... it sounds like alot but its really not. what it means is i will plan the days im in knox instead of showing at random, so i can actually plan shit with people i normally dont see and the people i dont see enough.... gods i miss my peeps in knox and im going to actually be able to say ill be here days XXXX.
outfit sounds cool....ill give you an honest opinion.
the dog:
animal behavior isnt really my bag, but ill run it by my woman. shes better with that type of shit. but dogs i do know (i off and on breed huskies) so ill give it a shot.
must be something about the act of doing dishes. noise level, smells, sounds, something. maybe a mix. but theres some stimuli getting to the dog its not digging it at all. the trick is to examine all the BASIC stimuli that could affect the dog when your doing dishes. sights, sounds, smells, ect
shouldnt be hard to figure.

Junkie, is anal sex fueling this thread?

JaNell wrote:Junkie, is anal sex fueling this thread?

not lately. political and professional hatred seems to be my primary motvation lately.... that and lack of frequent anal.

forget it, I'll just call and ask you.

Junkie, what's your opinion on having fuck buddies? Ya think it's a good thing, or a bad thing?
I personal think it's retarded, but maybe that's because I have morals and can't have sex without emotional attatchment...
Anyways, what do you think?

JC, how come every time I post a question on your thread, someone else posts a question before you have the chance to answer mine?

Sorry, but I'm in a bad mood today. If ya wanna know why, just read my xanga.

Damia_Thorne wrote:JC, how come every time I post a question on your thread, someone else posts a question before you have the chance to answer mine?

Sorry, but I'm in a bad mood today. If ya wanna know why, just read my xanga.

Does it really matter? He answers it either way.

(I'm in a shitty mood, too.)

vicious_blood wrote:Junkie, what's your opinion on having fuck buddies? Ya think it's a good thing, or a bad thing?
I personal think it's retarded, but maybe that's because I have morals and can't have sex without emotional attatchment...
Anyways, what do you think?

aren't you single and pregnant?
pleaze correct me if I'm wrong.

vicious_blood wrote:Junkie, what's your opinion on having fuck buddies? Ya think it's a good thing, or a bad thing?
I personal think it's retarded, but maybe that's because I have morals and can't have sex without emotional attatchment...
Anyways, what do you think?

i was a firm believer in them for years.
now im in question of that, but just for my own life. not for others.. maybe its being in a functional relationship for once but i dunno. im trying new things... lol.
id say as long as BOTH people are aware thats what it is go for it
keywords : BOTH PEOPLE KNOW.
the conversation contract that spells it all out is a golden helper.
i think sex being tied to emotinal attachment is socalization at best, not the natural order of things.
sex is a selection at best.
if you just want to to have sex with one person, it violates nature in every way. they should be honored or something. but that doesnt last either. we all do this though. people tend to gravitate towards one person to have sex with. and its safer to say the least. probably the better idea. but it breaks our nature and as previously stated doesnt last.
but then again i have a firm i dont believe in most emotions policy anyway
i think about 95% of the time fuck buddies are the way to go, esp if its exclusive fuck buddies.
thats all dating is anyway, this way your cutting the shit with pride and MY BOY/GERL FRIEND DOESNT DO THIS/ DID THIS. thats goddamn bullshit and its stupid.
its people pawning off their own damn instabilites on someone else because they fuck em. and thats most relationships. whooptee-fucking-doo-da i say. they should be realistic and say "at least im getting laid". why should this one person fix it all?
blah.
most dating, marriages, breeding, relationships, ect are a bad fucking idea anyway.
too many people are born as it is.
i say fuck buddies and birth control till you want to settle down for a while.
emotinal attachment is another way of saying theres parts of yourself you just dont like. its not solving anything, its just another addiction.
love as a word means the person your most obsessed with, and we are all OCD if we believe in love.
why people keep forgetting we are still animals at best shocks me.

Damia_Thorne wrote:JC, how come every time I post a question on your thread, someone else posts a question before you have the chance to answer mine?

Sorry, but I'm in a bad mood today. If ya wanna know why, just read my xanga.

because it gets bumped. lol
usually i answer em all.
and good luck if you try to call, im stuck on campus all day so i doubt ill be able to answer it........
ill check the xanga posts for the day when i get home. about 4 am or so.............lol.

Damia_Thorne wrote:

vicious_blood wrote:Junkie, what's your opinion on having fuck buddies? Ya think it's a good thing, or a bad thing?
I personal think it's retarded, but maybe that's because I have morals and can't have sex without emotional attatchment...
Anyways, what do you think?

aren't you single and pregnant?
pleaze correct me if I'm wrong.

Um...no...



I will not say the really rude things that are going thru my head, I will not say the really rude whings that are going thru my head...

So seriously what's the key to turning emotions off? I managed to hit a point Sat after LOTS of alcohol and having my heart ripped out stomped on and scooped back up that I actually was numb enough to have a tiny bit of fun. of course I was so trashed that I don't remember how I acted and probably made a complete fool of myself. anyways, this does not seem a cost effective method of killing my emotions. So should I continue with this therapy or go back on the Celexa that I'm supposed to be on anyways?