by abreeskye » Wed Oct 08, 2003 6:53 pm
I'm not sure where I stand.
I believe there is some sort of higher power. But, I can't see it having form. I perceive it as being energy. It's hard to explain. Kind of like a feminine and masculine energy.
Sometimes I feel like all the religions are there to explain this higher power "energy".
I don't neccessarily want to "worship" any diety or anything. But, alot of the rituals and things along that line that I have read interest me. I think alot of it has to do with our minds. And, doing some of these rituals helps us concentrate on achieving peace of mind, or whatever you do this and that for, and we are actually opening our minds up to it, and connecting to the energy around us.
I believe in cause and effect. Whenever you put out bad energy, bad energy comes back to you. And, that energy, by the time it makes its way back to you is probably alot worse. I also believe that you have to get the bad shit in life, in order to get some good. If things go too smoothly, or seem to be too good in my life, I start worrying. Because, 9 times out of 10, something bad is about to happen. And vice versa.
I have searched forever it seems. Searched to find some understanding of the world around me. I have read lots of books. But, most of the stuff I have read, I have had at least a few problems with. I mean, there are alot of religions that are attractive to me, but I have a hard time with hypocrisy.
Christianity doesnt make alot of sense to me. I mean, like I am sure everyone has said, true christians are great, but how many are really out there? I had a minister tell me that if I walked out her door right then, and got hit by a bus, where would I go? She said I would go to HELL, because I am a FORNICATOR! She was a freak. Most of the christians I have known have been VERY judgemental. I thought they weren't allowed to judge? And, I guess I shouldn't get started with the way I feel about the bible. I don't understand how someone can put so much stock in a book, that has so much hate in it.
Anyway, I am taking lots and lots of hydrocodone right now, so none of this probably made any sense. Heh. Please forgive me! I am interested to know more about magick though....and others opinions of it....