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Postby test0verride » Tue Nov 16, 2004 4:48 pm

Well, i guess it is time for me to post something. I have been interested in the whole gothic sceen for most of my life, but never followed up on it. I am just coming out of a very long and very damaging relationship. I no longer have any friends and have not had any for a very long time. I am a student/father/full time employee. I reliaze now that i no longer know who i am, what i like or what i want to do. I ran a BBS for the longest time, but due to the relationship i had to take it down. Bah, if you want to know more just let me know, i am not short on self-pity right now (joke)

ok so a little background on me is finished. It is time to get back to myself and heal a devastated heart. I do not know how much i will post here, but i will be watching.
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Postby LordHades » Tue Nov 16, 2004 4:57 pm

Well, it's good to meet you, though I can certainly see you have your plate full. You'll find alot of warm, generous, and caring people here though, who can no doubt help with a friendly ear, and some sage advice, alot of them have gone through similar situations and will know where you're coming from, and what might help. Sympathy and understanding abounds here, if you look past all the transitory drama that crops up now and then :)

Still, I'm not known for my empathy, so I'll leave that to the experts and do what I do best, remain socially oblivious and ask inappropriate questions of people I don't know well. What are your interests and hobbies? What part of the gothic scene draws you? The look, the music, the concept, the general cynical outlook?
What type of BBS was it? It sounds like that was a pretty big thing for you, so no doubt it'll give some insight into who you are for folks. You may even find some old friends here from it :) It seems a very eclectic group.

Well, again, welcome, and do enjoy yourself as much as you feel you can :)
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Postby test0verride » Tue Nov 16, 2004 5:18 pm

well, that was fast :)

you have brought up the question i have been thinking of for about a month now, what are my interests/hobbeis? after more than 9 years not being myself, the only thing i know for sure is:

1) I am an open book and an open mind, nothinig is out of bounds or taboo.
2) I love computers and technology (getting my bachelors degree in network security and forensics)
3) there is nothing more beautiful than a gothic women (the look, the outlook, etc..)
4) i love reading and books
5) i like almost all forms of music
6) i am a hopelss romantic (be it good or bad)
7) I am NOT christian (like for sure on that one)

basically what attracts me to the gothic sceen is the look and the way of thinking. As for myself i do not look the part, blonde hair blue eyes, short hair, normal clothes, But it has been a long time since i have know myself. I gained too much weight while married, the depression lead to eatting and the eatting led to FAT, which is now coming of slowly :( a little too slowly for my liking.

I will point this out for the record. #1 is probably what i value most about myself. I am open and open minded, nothing offends so yuou guys can feel free to ask anything you want and i will try my best to honestly answer the question. ;)
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Postby vicious_blood » Tue Nov 16, 2004 5:25 pm

Hi...are you a dude or dudette?

Maybe I just didn't read that...
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Postby Asher » Tue Nov 16, 2004 5:27 pm

Hi there!


I'm new to the knoxville scene as well, though not new to the scene as a whole. Welcome..and i think i can probably speak for most of us when i say we are here for you should you need anything.

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Postby vicious_blood » Tue Nov 16, 2004 5:27 pm

Oh nevermind. I'm :loco:
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Postby test0verride » Tue Nov 16, 2004 5:46 pm

ok class is about to start is this one is short.

I am not looking for sex or a relationship. I am looking for some adult conversation. Pretty much the past 5 years has been spent talking to and with my children, so i am a little outta touch with the adult conversation world :) I will probably show up at the coffee house and stuff from time to time as school and work permit.

anyway just thought i would throw that in there. Not that there is anything wrong with sex and relationship i love them both very much, and probably could not turn down the beautiful people have have seen at sanctus. YES i have been to 1 or 2 of them over the past 3 years :) I am the one that always looks out of place. I need a deeper connection of the soul right now. A connection with like minded adults and good conversation.

dammit time for class gotta run!
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Postby The Stormstress » Tue Nov 16, 2004 6:27 pm

Grrreetingz & Velcum! :twisted: Conversation iz pretty eazy 2 cum by here, although I won't vouch 4 it'z fully adult n8ur. We hav memberz from teenz on up 2 40-sumthingz (that I kno ov) ... Many ov us r rather playful sortz; hope u njoy!
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Postby ms.tangledwebs » Tue Nov 16, 2004 6:50 pm

Welcome!! glad to have you here.... Just cause I love the kiddies... how old are/is yours? We are always happy about new goff babies.
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Postby test0verride » Tue Nov 16, 2004 7:45 pm

i have 2, my son is 4 (5 on dec. 22) and my daughter is 3 (may 17).

ok, break is over back to class
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Postby test0verride » Wed Nov 17, 2004 4:01 pm

oh yeah, i have not really done anything since i moved back here from Southern California (Long Beach Area). I missed california and wanted to go back. I withdrew from everyone and everything, so now many years later I am a blank canvas ready to be painted. I do not think my soon to be X wife was the problem, we were/are a good match, i think it was the baggage we brought into the relationship that messed everything up.

I need to get out more :)
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Postby Nigredo » Wed Nov 17, 2004 6:57 pm

I bid you Velcome. :blackbat:
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Postby uncle goth » Wed Nov 17, 2004 7:27 pm

im new here too, you'll find if you relax and be yourself you'll be accepted. nobody will bite you,(unless they ask first) so dont be afraid tojust talk to people who look interesting
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Postby shadow dancer » Wed Nov 17, 2004 10:01 pm

Welcome to the forum.
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Postby SilentScreams » Thu Nov 18, 2004 3:02 am

Welcome. Sit back and relax. It seems like you just need a place to vent and someone to listen.. definitely found it. I can totally sympathize with you on the adult conversation. I was in a very bad relationship for 8 yrs myself and forced to be a stay at home mom. I didnt get adult conversation until may of this year. Feel free to pm or the like if you ever need to chat. We wouldn't be posting on this board if we didn't want to see what you had to say :)
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Postby test0verride » Thu Nov 18, 2004 3:23 pm

thank all of you for thekind words.

I was pretty much forced into being a stay at home father (outside of work). I do not have nay hard feelings about the relationship and i would go back in time and cahnge that we got together as that would eliminate my children which are pretty much my world. Everything i have done lately has been for them, going back to school etc..

but yes i would like to talk, not really vent though i could probably use it :) it is just a matter of getting back to myself and what i like
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Postby Lost Traveler » Thu Nov 18, 2004 3:57 pm

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